LovesEternalMuse

I read something today that sparked my memory...Memory of how beautiful life was when I found my one true love. It was just a bag and it brought a glow, a light, and needed reminder of what it was to really see things...when I first started dancing...I was 6, eager, wise, lovely, loving, on a familiar journey, and more aware than a 6 year old should be (at least that's what some thought). There was a window by the dance bar at the dance studio. It was my first. I explored, sweat, worked through, cried through contractions, searched with my body for the very first time there...I would gaze outside and daydream while my ballet teacher spoke...and the flowers outside the dance studio were vibrant and many...Flowers always fascinated me. Beautiful flowers...even as they withered and fell to the earth, I ALWAYS thought they were beautiful...Beautiful flowers dance in my mind, outside my windows, in my name...funny how flowers, sight, windows, dance...all eager, all wise, all lovely, all loving...funny how they excite me and hold me close. I had no idea how happy I was then when then was a now...I was so happy...hmmm...I want to dance now...see beauty...be beauty...release beauty...remember beauty...

So, Sophomore year in college I was totally obsessed with wanting this...I think I still want it AND it is no longer an obsession (I am happy to say)...

DEAD PREZ
"Mind Sex"

It’s time for some mind sex, we ain’t got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let’s have a good conversation

[verse 1]
Pardon me love but you seem like my type
What you doin tonight? you should stop by the site
We could, roll some weed play some records and talk
I got a fly spot downtown brooklyn, new york
Now I know you think I wanna fuck, no doubt
But tonight we’ll try a different route, how bout we start
With a salad, a fresh bed of lettuce with croutons
Later we can play a game of chess on the futon
See I ain’t got to get in your blouse
It’s your eye contact, that be getting me aroused
When you show me your mind, it make me wanna show you mines
Reflecting my light, when it shines, just takin our time
Before the night’s through, we could get physical too
I ain’t tryin to say I don’t wanna fuck, cause I do
But for me boo, makin love is just as much mental
I like to know what I’m gettin into

[chorus]
We could have mind sex, we ain’t got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let’s have a good conversation

It’s time for some mind sex, we ain’t got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let’s have a good conversation
Time for some mind sex...

(singing): before we make love

Yeah, what you know about mind sex?

(singing): before we make love

[verse 2]
African princess, tell me yo’ interests
Wait, let me guess boo, you probably like poetry
Here’s a little something I jotted down in case I spotted you around
So let me take this opportunity
Would you share a moment with me, over herbal tea?
Take a walk verbally, make a bond certaintly
Cuz in my hand I bet your hand fit perfectly
And it’s like we floatin out in space when you flirtin wit me
C’mon, a little foreplay don’t hurt (hmmm)
Imagine my chest under this shirt, your ass under your skirt
It’s like walking the hot sands and finding an oasis
Opposites attract that’s the basis
Our sex is the wind that seperates the yin from the yang
The balance that means complete change, our aim
Is to touch you in a delicate spot
And once we get it started I ain’t trying to stop

[chorus]
But first we have mind sex, we ain’t got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let’s have a good conversation

It’s time for some mind sex, we ain’t got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let’s have a good conversation
Mind sex...

[spoken]
She smiles, I smile
She walks, no she glides softly by me changing night into day
She opens her mouth to speak, and so sounds ring in my head
She speaks, and I want to dance to her rhythm
She moves ever so gently, increasing my desires,
As I place my arms around her waist,
Hold and squeeze unto me,
I want to melt into her body, and discover the base of her warmth
Her beautiful black body that, no human mind could ever conceive
She’s love
She’s truth
She’s real, as real as the stars that shine in the heavens
As real as the sun that bathes her body,
As real as the moon that glows and the birds that sing and the rose
That blossoms in spring for she is that rose
And not just any rose,
But a black rose,
Black rose stands tall and stronger than any other plant
A black rose, that stands as creator, of nations of
Black rose
That never loses her petals, and blossoms all year round
Black rose,
Sweet rose,
Thornless rose
Eternal rose
Please look my way,
Please look my way
Please look my way
Black rose

Y'all know this was about me, right? (The Angel smiles)

I've been wrapped up in bad decisions. I'm going away. Back to a place more familiar and safe. No ugly words or ugly acting people. Back to where peace doesn't require a request or collateral. Back to where I see me and not me surrounded by mayhem. All of that to say, I will abscond from time to time and if you want me, you know where to find me. Nodding my head to a QTIP flick, rocking with De La Soul, daydreaming, dancing, sweating, remembering, imagining, bopping to the 80s, and thinking about love again...hmmm...I am really feeling Tribe Called Quest again. Here are a few of the lyrics that I am diggin right now...For the sake of the JAM!

STRESSED OUT (Bjork say dip Mix)
[Phife]
Dundali, Dundalow, Dundli Dundalee
You know I look for trouble but trouble didn't follow me
All I wanted to be was an iller MC
Ever since nigga small as I grew up in Queens
What did you mosh of the Nontall (Holla Me!)
I turned my best friend Quaturem em head what I'd seen
And ever since that day (y'll hear me) things been a mess
R&B goes to rocky, true I tell and bless
So nowadays I go and see wifey just to kill me from stress
Lay my head on her breast, sugar definitely knows best
Explaining all my problems to her, gettin things off my chest
A lil hug up squeez up and no more I vent
Aiyo Sunny, without my peeps I'd be truely assed out
Making sure I have my lettercations so I wouldn't pass out
Native Tongues for believing in me when everyone was fessing
Most of Ja Mighty for the guidance and the blessings

I really know how it feels to be stressed out, stressed out
When you're face to face with your adversity
I really know how it feels to be stressed out, stressed out
We're gonna make this thing work out eventually
Come on baby we gonna make it (ohhhh)
Come on baby we gonna make it (Gonna make it)
Come on baby we gonna make it (ohhhhh)
We gonna make it
Come on we gonna make it (ohhh)
I know were gonna make it (We're gonna make it)
Come on baby we gonna make it (Gonna make it)
We gonna make it (Ohhh yeah)
Come on baby we gonna make it (Yeahhh baby)
We gonna make it (Gonna make it)
We gonna make it (Yeahhh)
I know were gonna make
Were gonna make it
Gonna make it
We gotta make it (Oh yeahhh)
You know we gotta make it

Artist: A Tribe Called Quest
Album: The Love Movement
Song: Common Ground (Get It Going On)


Q-Tip:
Who that at the door? (Yo, Tip, it's her)
What you doin here, in front of my face? (repeat 3X)
You didn't want my...you didn't want it
To go somewhere, you all on it
But if you want to, then you can come here
Come here, yo

Q-Tip:
Have you ever met a woman that just took your breath? (yeah, uh huh uh huh, yeah, uh huh)
So deep inside her life, she contemplated death (damn she deep, give a fella the creeps)
Can't help but get attatched to a woman like that (true dat(repeat 4X))
The contact was quite immediate, I had to attack
(Because you the man, yo, you know you the man)
We related and debated over food and tunes
Started out in September, now we enterin June (say word(repeat 4X))
Simple night in the crib, no, it just won't do
(no it just won't do, no it just won't do)
Because she liable to start shit that's wild for you
(wild for you, wild for...)
She wanna push my whip, buy diamond chips
And take on trips, conversin over flicks
Gotta do her hair, take her out to the fair
Win a teddy bear, make sure you don't stare
At another one comin, don't be startin nuthin
Be a slave to her, don't be brave to her
Make sure that she's right, make sure that you're wrong
When she wants to do it, make sure that it's long
If anyone wanna make it work it's me (Phife Dawg help me out(repeat 2X))
But we gotta come to a common ground baby
Any man, he can claim to be the one for you
But put it straight to your lover in life runs true

chorus:
And if it's me then let's get it going on (repeat 4X)
Get it going on, let's get it going on

Q-Tip:
Phife Dawg in the break, is she more than you can take?

Phife:
See, I'm not the one to be taken advantage of
And if you really think about it, I got nuthin but love
Now if your heart isn't in it, please let me know
There's no need to waste time, if it's no, then I'll go

chorus:
And if it's me then let's get it going on (repeat 4X)

WHERE HAVE I BEEN? I MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN I JUST LIED ON THE FLOOR AND ALLOWED THE MUSIC TO TAKE MY THOUGHTS TO VARIOUS PLACES...I MISS TRIBE...MY FIRST ROAD TRIP ON MY OWN WAS TO SEE THEM IN CONCERT AND I WAS ON FIRE IN THE FRONT ROW...WHAT HAPPENED? HIP HOP USED TO MOVE ME...